Get support from others going through depression or have been through it themselves.

mwl · Site Admin Joined: 18 Aug 2008 Posts: 38

I have suffered from depression for along time. I was abused as a child, rejected by my parents. I self harmed myself. I hated myself for allowing myself to be used in the manner by my abuser.

I have been raped.

My trust in men was at such a low point in my life back in 1999. Then in the same year I met someone who fell in love with me for being me. I moved to Holland, got married to him. Had two wonderful children together.

Unfortunately he died a few weeks back from cancer, something that has hit me and my kids hard. Yes I am on antids and Valium, sleeping pills just to get by.

I am out here alone, having no family here. But I have the best friends I could ever asked for out here and they are like my family that I never had.

Yes I still want to self harm as I am angry at the cancer that my dear man died from but he made me very happy. He gave me my kids and for that reason I try and fight to look after them. Give them the life I never had. Its a hard task ahead.